I come to learn that being a "grown up" is not quite the reality of the fantasy I had invisioned for so long. Being a human being is an effort every day. I realize you could be nothing and achieve nothing and there is no effort but I am not positive that is being a human being anyway. I think it is noteworthy to live everyday because it is diffucult to do so. For me it is an effort to not scream at the top of my lungs how dumb people truely are or how rude they are to other humans. Those people don't realize how diffucult life is because they put forth no true effort in it. People who are rude for no apparent reason other than to be rude must have it easy. Why, because they don't have to do anything in life if they don't agree than screw it and whoever is involved! Of course I don't believe that is any way to live a "life" because you would be very unhappy! Which is easy, it is easy to be unhappy and mad and in a bad mood all the time because so many bad things happen and it is easy to bring someone down than to lift someone up. The society we live is has been molded to think that way. It is very sad to me, and that is why so many people are the horrible way they are. The laziness that is the "in" thing right now, that I am sad to say may become the permanent thing, is going to be the demise of the decent human being!