Well I have been in school for about a month and working on the first play "Moon Over Buffalo" we have really only been blocking(kinda like cheorographing) so not much character work and I am having a difficult time with my character she didn't seem to fit in with the rest of everyone else. I am working on her though and she is coming along. i have had two rehersals for "A Streetcar named Desire" which by the way i have 5 lines in at the very very end. It sucks! I know I have been away awhile but it just makes me feel kind of crappy especially since I don't have anyone to talk to about it that will truely understand. I am still liking my acting class, but it seems like we are doing the same thing over and over, which I know is part of the technique but I have just been down on myself like I can't do anything. My musical theatre class doesn't start until October 24! that is forever away, i thought it started next week and it would help with some of my feelings. I suppose I have never really challenged myself before and followed through on it. Everything had come easily to me, at least most of the things I enjoyed. It is hard to seperate my dance background from my acting techniques, it is good I have them but they can get in the way.

Anywho not to bore you with theatre talk! My job is ok. It is actually funny because the people haven't really bothered me too much. The people I work with and for and the ridiculous ones. We have a ranking system that goes c, b, a, trainer. When I left I was the number 3 trainer and I came back and had to be a c. Which i have never been in the 5 years I waited tables. I was fine with it until a month later I am just a b. I can't close any shifts and I am not making any money. It wouldn't really bother me, except the people above me aren't good. I know the managers all know what I am capable of and that I am better then most(not to be vain) but they didn't want to make anyone mad by starting me as a trainer. That is fine, but at least a b wait would have been fine, and then I could have been closing by now because I would have already been an A wait. Matt talked to one of the managers and he said I would be a trainer very shortly. I don't want to complain but sometimes it is hard when you probably won't be able to pay bills. I have realized that people who don't work label people who are leaders as people who complain and bitch!