I go back to work tomorrow ugh! But I am looking at it differently now, I have always wanted to be that strong person who could get through things and have a great attitude about it. I have never been that type of person but now would be the perfect opportunity to be. I know I don't want to do this job but if I go in witha better attitude about it, it won't be nearly as hard. I know I am going back to school and won't be doing this much longer and we do sometimes have to do things we don't want to. Though if at all possible I will not do things I don't want to because there is no reason. This though is my journey to being that person I want to be and maybe who I really am but never realized.

I will also start today with a 30 day goal. My goal to take my medication every day and write down how I am feeling about different aspects of my life and then at the end of the 30 days look back and see how i am feeling. This way I will have a good head on my shoulders. I feel like I am learning to how to grow up all over again at 22 almost 23 and i am scared half to death to do so but am so excited also. Whatever happens in the next 30 days in the next few months, I know will be for the best and I will grow and start to figure out who I am. Even though i am by myself a lot I am not truely hanging out with myself. I have missed out on a lot of things I could have learned earlier but that is ok. The past is behind me and the future is tomorrow. I will take each day as a journey a life lesson. I know it won't always be easy to feel that way but there is no fun in being easy!