Well I have been in school for about a month and working on the first play "Moon Over Buffalo" we have really only been blocking(kinda like cheorographing) so not much character work and I am having a difficult time with my character she didn't seem to fit in with the rest of everyone else. I am working on her though and she is coming along. i have had two rehersals for "A Streetcar named Desire" which by the way i have 5 lines in at the very very end. It sucks! I know I have been away awhile but it just makes me feel kind of crappy especially since I don't have anyone to talk to about it that will truely understand. I am still liking my acting class, but it seems like we are doing the same thing over and over, which I know is part of the technique but I have just been down on myself like I can't do anything. My musical theatre class doesn't start until October 24! that is forever away, i thought it started next week and it would help with some of my feelings. I suppose I have never really challenged myself before and followed through on it. Everything had come easily to me, at least most of the things I enjoyed. It is hard to seperate my dance background from my acting techniques, it is good I have them but they can get in the way.

Anywho not to bore you with theatre talk! My job is ok. It is actually funny because the people haven't really bothered me too much. The people I work with and for and the ridiculous ones. We have a ranking system that goes c, b, a, trainer. When I left I was the number 3 trainer and I came back and had to be a c. Which i have never been in the 5 years I waited tables. I was fine with it until a month later I am just a b. I can't close any shifts and I am not making any money. It wouldn't really bother me, except the people above me aren't good. I know the managers all know what I am capable of and that I am better then most(not to be vain) but they didn't want to make anyone mad by starting me as a trainer. That is fine, but at least a b wait would have been fine, and then I could have been closing by now because I would have already been an A wait. Matt talked to one of the managers and he said I would be a trainer very shortly. I don't want to complain but sometimes it is hard when you probably won't be able to pay bills. I have realized that people who don't work label people who are leaders as people who complain and bitch!

Okay, so something happened today that appropriatly falls under my "People aren't Polite" blog but I don't use that one and I have to tell this story. I was at work today and had already been cut and had no tables. I had finished most of my section but was seperating an 8 top I had. Well the area manager came over and took my broom and dust pan and said " just what I need" so I just said "well you better bring it back" in a playful tone. So about 5 minutes later I was ready for it back, I had stalled and done some other stuff so he could have time with it. Well silly me, I went over and , by the way he also took a chair from one of my talbles at the beginning of the shift which enable me to have a complete table, which I could have gotten yelled at for. Anywho, so I jokingly say, "first you take my chair then you take my broom" anyone who knows me knows I wasn't being rude or arguing at all. He turns around and says "It isn't your chair and there are other brooms so go find one" I was shocked because surely he was kidding since he did take the broom I was using!!!! I said " Whoa I was just kidding around, and I was using the broom," then he said " are you done arguing, are you done arguing" So finally I said yea you're ridiculous Dinny and walked off. I was IRATE!!!! How does someone get off talking to another human being especially after they took something you were in the middle of using!!! HOW I ASK YOU! I could not believe a grown man was acting that way. how did he get to be an area manager! UGH he makes me sick and mad. So mad that I wrote a letter to the owner about him. I know it won't do much good, but it has to sit down and talk with someone that will make me feel a little better! Anywho I am still really mad about it and do not have an inkling of respect for him. I have more stuff to write but I am in an angry mood and would like to calm down!

Well I had my first rehersal and it was ok. I have the smallest parts in both plays. I know I shouldn't complain but the girl that got the part i wanted isn't that good. I think I did a better job in that role, but i was to small to play the part. It does make me feel good that my character is suppose to be pretty and everyone admires her. That is kinda cool, not that I am vain but who doesn't want to be picked for role of the pretty girl every once in a while. I also have the smallest role in Streetcar Named Desire too. So I am a little upset right now, but I will get over it. I could be the best at my part. It is easy to screw up the parts in Streetcar, not that I want that for any of them because I like all the people that got the roles. "There are no small parts in acting, only small actors" is what I have to keep referring back too. Only 3 weeks till my Musical Theatre class starts Hooray!

I am working my first Friday night since I have been back, but I am on a party with Matt for his future boss. So it won't be so bad and he tips very well! Next week I will be working a lot so I will be able to take off weekends later on for the plays.

There is word that the musical for next semester will be "Cabaret" which would be incredible! That show is awesome and I would love to help with cheorography. I have done one of the songs a few years back and everyone loved it. I loved doing it and being in it. They might also do "Best little Whorehouse in Texas" which I have never seen but apparently is pretty good too. I will have to rent the movie version, I am pretty sure there is one. Well toodles for now, I have to get back to the terrible coffee I made!

Well it has been a busy week and a half for me. I started at the restaraunt and it is just fine same old same old. It is funny to go back to it because it is soooo easy to do for me, like riding a bike you know. Don't get me wrong not everyone can do this job and there are many drawbacks. I got a $.39 tip on $55 the other day I was furious!! Those things happen though and I should just let it pass. I am not making any money because i don't have closing shifts yet. Hopefully by next weekend I will though!

School is AWESOME! I want to go every day. one of my classes was post-poned till October which I am little bummed about but can not wait. I absolutely love my Acting III class it is incredible. Everyone should take this class because you'll learn so much about yourself. I had two auditions last week that went very well. I found out today that I am in both of them. I am the Nurse in "Streetcar Named Desire" which is fine because I am not strong enough yet for the other roles. I am Eileen in "Moon Over Buffalo" which I am excited about but a little dissapointed because I wanted a different role that wasn't some little girl. But I look so young I need to accept that for now. She will be a terrific character that will be fun to develop and she is pregnant in the show with a married guy. The guy planning my opposite is Great! I can't wait to work with him. My theatre teacher taught Yale drama students this summer. He is teaching us the same stuff how cool is that!

Well I am 23 can you believe it! My birtday was great. The day before I went to IKEA!!! AAAAHHH! It was amazing I got all new living room stuff. We didn't have a lot of time so I didnt' get to look around but I have to take something back so I will allow for a lot of time to look. We went to the Melting Pot and it was amazing as always. Hands down my favorite restaraunt I wish I could eat there every day! Went to Tumbleweeds to meet some friends and had fun. Everyone seemed to be in a droopy mood so that kind stunk but oh well. The next day my family came over which was neat to have them over to my house which doesn't happen because it is so small. Kirk brought me a huge part hat which apparently I need to thank one of his friends for! I love it, it is so cool! I got great gifts too. It was Kirks birthday bash too, his is a day before mine. I felt awful because I forgot to call him, I don't know what is wrong with me I also forgot to call my parents on Thursday for their anniversary! Yikes that is so not me! Matt's family came over that night. It is always akward to open presents in front of them, I don't like to do it in the first place and i don't know I am being silly! I got Roseanne Season 1 and Scrubs season 1 Which they both rock! I got giftcards to Starbucks, Target, Barnes & Noble and Marshalls. I have spent them all except for Starbucks! Which I will use tomorrow!

I know this is so long but I had so much to talk about. Jenn is getting ready to have a baby boy which will be so exciting because I will get to go see her in the hospital and I never got to do that with any of the girls. I just love Kirk and Jenn it is as if she grew up in this family! I appreciate her being such a great friend to me and tolerate of my ranting on! I miss yall! Well I will go for now. I am enjoying life right now! and loving it!!! Good wishes!