Well lets see, I am having a difficult time in my play right now. I am not feeling very talented or connected to the play. It seems as though the whole cast is a unit and I am just an outsider looking in. No one really talks to me and I want to talk to them. I feel like some sad pathetic nerd. They hang out together when we are there and outside of it and call each other. It is as if because I am married I have nothing to talk to them about or don't want to, I don't know what it is. I always feel like I am intruding when I do go to talk to them. Today after the first rehersal i went outside and sat on a bench and then two other people went and sat on a different bench(they're a couple so i figure they want to talk) Then two more people, the two I thought liked me, went and sat with them. They don't even really like the other two people. I just don't get it. I know this seems childish, but it has been going on for a month, I thought at first it was because I was new but that doesn't seem to be the case and I just feel like a piece of leftover meatloaf! No one wants leftover meatloaf! I just want someone to talk to there I just feel like I am always being judged negatively.